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Fr. Bartlett W. Gage copyright Hounds of Heaven Publishing
Here are some observations from my heart for you on your pilgrimage of faith in the real world. They are the comments of one who has walked the trails of intensive graduate scholarship (ll years), entrepenurial business (20 years), and pastoral ministry (13 years). These reflections are meant to ease the way for those of you of a questioning nature. I hope they will be helpful. If not, then join Ben (my Black Lab) and me on a stroll through imagination's fields and have a good time. Fr. Gage
JN 3:1-17 2/17/08 It rained like crazy last Wednesday. But first it had snowed and the snow had turned to slush. I got up early in order to get ready to come in and do the seven o'clock service. Bad weather is now problem for me. I pulled on my favorite Nautica Boots and waded out. These are wonderful boots. I've had them for ten, fifteen years. The water came right through them! My faithful all weather shirt was also drenched. I retrieved the New York Times and Stamford Advocate, which I read before coming to work. But I couldn't read them because I had to change my clothes. The service started late and I was off balance for the rest of the day. We all have routines and patterns of behavior that we follow and depend on. They are the ways "we have always done that." Those routines and patterns, personal and societal, are called mores and folkways. Mores are the rules and regulations, laws and requirements. Folkways are more informal, family traditions and ways we order our life. How we dress tends to be a folkway. Women wear high heels. Men don't (except in Texas). The boots you walk in will vary according to the culture, geographical area and function of what the wearer is doing. All of this is pretty obvious until you begin to notice that men and women yearn to have a closer relationship to that which is the "Holy Other." When men and women are called, or pulled in by that which is part of the mysterium tremendum, part of the compelling force in and behind life, then things get very very serious. We all have a desire to live in harmony with life, to find "the right relationship" to how things fit together. The Book of Job deals seriously with that problem. For the Hebrew, for the Jew, the overwhelming question was "How do you live in a right relationship with God?" For the Jew the answer was in their history and in the prophets. Their history spoke of God's leading them to a promise land. Their prophets spoke of justice, mercy, humility and faithfulness to the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. The sole repository of this information was The Law. Now The Law was not just the Ten Commandments; it was the first five books of the Bible, the Pentateuch, and it was called The Torah. Certain scholars specialized in studying the Law and in trying to interpret it, which they did sometimes by bringing in the prophets. These men were called rabbis. Those who were "strict constructionists" and very conservative were the Sadducees. The more liberal were the Pharisees, who wanted to make things applicable to every day life. Arguing and reasoning and studying were part of what they did and how they lived. Now there was a man, named Nicodemus, a Pharisee and leader of the Jews who came to Jesus by night and asked, told Jesus that he knew that Jesus was a teacher who had come from God; for no one could do the things Jesus did unless sent from God. (A very flattering opening gambit). Jesus speaks of being born from above. Nick rhetorically counters that one can't re-enter the womb. Jesus replies that what is born of the Spirit is spirit and what is born of the flesh is flesh. One who is born of the Spirit and believes the Son of Man (Son of God) will be able to enter the kingdom of heaven. What Nick is being told is that the old mores and folkways, the old patterns of behavior that Israel has followed, that the Jews have followed, that the rabbis have taught -- The Law -- is not enough. Belief in the teachings of Jesus and in Jesus as the Son of God is the key to living a meaningful and holy life and is the key to entering the kingdom of heaven (which is in effect having a right relationship to God both here and hereafter.) In the storms of life the old boots for the pilgrimage of faith don't work. Our job during Lent is to re-examine our understandings of the nature of Jesus and his teachings and the extent to which we have incorporated them into our lives. This process and experience is not a casual or "sometime" thing. Some years ago I was celebrating a noon service when a figure appeared at the end of the side aisle. He was stooped and lame. I bid him come in and later talked to him. We became friends. His name was "Nicholas." Nick was a former professor at leading universities and also an international consultant. "I used to commute on the Concorde," he once told me. Nick's health was rapidly deteriorating, and he was in and out of hospitals. Most of the time I saw him and gave him communion in the hospitals. Nick had been highly successful as a "rabbi," or expert in areas of finance and management. He had mastered the mores of our capitalist society. Nick married and divorced three times and had four adult children, with whom he had a very tenuous relationship. Each of them had been damaged by the divorces. Nick and I talked through those relationships, and he began to see where he had failed and the damaged he had done. He realized that he had neglected the area of faith and his relationship to God. Nick's values, perspective, orientation and life turned around. He changed. Nick still was an expert in his Torah or ways of life, his management expertise, but he realized that he needed something more profound. He needed Christ as well. Nick's health tanked and his son took him out to California, where he died. I invited to do the funeral. My knee blew out and I could hardly walk. My son Chris out of the blue called up and said, "I'll take you out." We flew out; I wore a pair of sturdy shoes, and I did the service. I told the family that I came out because Nick had changed. He had come to terms with his failures and blindness and was sorry. He greatly loved his children. The youngest daughter asked if Nick really loved her and knew that she loved him. I told her "Yes," and said the same when the older daughter asked the same thing. "You see, I said to all four adult children, I came out here to honor your father. A man of learning, he had missed what was important, repented and learned again. In the processes through the love of God he was able to express his love for his family." My son Chris brought me back home. You see, small miracles do happen, or at least begin, here at St. John's. The Nicodemus in St. John's story continued to be a rabbi, paying attention to the mores and folkways, The Law, but he added to that discipleship to Christ. He was there at the Crucifixion and prepared Jesus' body for the tomb (in accordance with The Law). At the same time Nick recognized that Jesus the Son of God and believed in Him. So too, you and I during this Lent are called to examine our assumptions and patterns of behavior, our mores and folkways, how we do things (professionally, personally, and familial) and how we integrate Christ into the core of our being. Sometimes we need to make changes. Sometimes we need new shoes for our pilgrimage of faith. Sometimes we discover that we cannot put new wine into old wine skins. Sometimes repentance is called for. Let us go forth in the name of Christ. Amen.
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